Nothing however about what something is is not also many other combinations of other things it seems not to be when viewed through another aspect of what it is not. Thus to understand what anything is, you must constantly be combining it and separating it interchangeably with every aspect or definition of what it is not, or seems not to be. It is like a dynamic measure with every aspect of its existence overlapping everything else seemingly separate, (by) one measure or view at a time. Combining all views one sees the interlinkages as shifting and the gaps mobile as well. 

Something inside of me connected with them, they were more dimensional timewise like I could reach into their past or futures. I could not look just at them but through them to something else as if their minds and lives would open up to me to show me who they are, were, or wanted to be. And they were happy as if no one showed that interest in who they were anymore, as if it didn't matter anymore, and really enjoyed someone really looking within, not wanting anything from them, but with genuine admiration and heartfelt curiosity. 

People like to show their status in regards to others through their physical appearance. Clothes, hair, even fingernails can and are used to show on the low end, (that) they are not worthless people or bums, and on the high end, look at me, get out of my way, I spend more on my fingernails or cufflinks than you earn in a week or year. Though this is not always necessarily arrogance, most never see it either as vanity or insecurity, and the economy and social structure not only encourage it, they depend on it. 

Seeing through time - seeing the youths within old people, seeing the young as they would be many years from now if they had many years left to live 

Objects curving, warping, sucking up space around them as (they) move through it like little black holes and inverse black holes 

Expanding (dividing) and coalescing (combining) in different ways at the same time through / within movement or still movement (seemingly) which is always also movement. 

Is passes through isn't to become is again (in movement). When in isn't, is is indiscernible from anything else that it isn't. Figure that out, then remove time. 

Backward space or time become necessary when considering movement through 5 dimensions or 4 dimensions of space plus time. Both of these are in a way the same thing. The object I used was a 5D version of a cube or Tesseract, then used its "surface" or 4D wall to understand movement through 5 dimensions simultaneously or 4 intersecting 3D worlds or universes plus time. 

Objects through interaction create a solid common past between them and a definite future which will be common to and contain both in some fashion or another. Without interaction, no definite past or future (of one) is real to the other. 

Everyone a reflection of what happens to them but through them as well 

It is the dynamic or friction or interaction through, with, or between what something is or seems only to be and what it isn't, or seems not to be, which creates all else. That this is externally going on all around you is no big surprise, yet all that is external in every way, is going on internally within you as well, simultaneously.

All (of the 4D sculptures) ought to be made of glass to demonstrate the invertibility of curved space, or the inverse effect, visually and easily. That becomes so obvious (with glass), that the same view from all outside points (combined) looking inward through both spheres is exactly the same as the outward view from the center sphere looking outward in all directions (from its center point), that few could not be able to glimpse it. 

Correct 4D perspective - from inside out through in all 3 (axis) directions or outside in through all 3 (axis) directions at once back over the entire 3D plane. 

Universal Swiss cheese- atoms of objects pushing their existence outward into dimensions of space creating holes "behind the scenes" or backstage from where they push through. Lacking to existence to lacking defined only by surroundings, water bubble above (the) surface, air bubble below (the) surface. Potential to actual to potential, nothing is changed but the perspective it is viewed by or through. 

Reaching out to the future, passing through that reaching out to the past, where they overlap, perception of the present. 

Anything which grows into something else entirely is not only an extension of that originating existence or principle, it is (over the long run) its only means to continue at all. The longer we can keep true to our best aspirations for the future, and actualize them in however best we can adapt them to present circumstances, they are like a bigger signal fire to those in the future to emulate, because of how they exist through adaptations in more than one time or (in) more than one structure, than in any one actualization at only one point in time, however much larger it may be in scope at that time. 

Balloon, opposite sides touching, passing through each other. 

Same pen case, new ink interior (tube with ball), same pen? Even if same interior and just ink replaced, same pen? Ink it came with or perpetually refilled externally, is ink even (then) a part of the pen? (Is) what moves through what you do, a part of you if it is added in progress? Can't stand in the same river twice idea, pen with ink not pre-ordained at purchase, not same pen or pen just a receptacle for ink that comes later, and something external to pen. 

Awareness passing through the 4D snow ball (water in glass ball with fake snow and a winter scene that you shake), growing lifeforms within to view it from inside 

Not just looking at something but being aware of what you are looking at, aware of looking, of the connection between both, how your consciousness is both here and there simultaneously trying to feed both locations, (both) objects (you and it), and (the) interactions (by perception) back into your mind at once as well as perceiving this process from yet a third viewpoint. The same can be done with perceiving how you are perceiving time. 

Being able to see through all the structural bullshit to keep people from understanding the full picture of how the world works is dangerous ones retirement plans. If you want to see beyond it, it is better not to have any. 

What anything seems to be at a single moment in time is inaccurate and false because single moments in time do not exist. All you can do is average many possible interpretations of it through many periods in time and try to find a common theme to it or a constant, which is inevitably what you choose to fixate upon as unchanging (since it all is) to view it apart from an external environment which you both allow can change and is separate from it, so those changes are not a part of it (as well). 

Faster through space (gravity, blast zones) = slower (in) time. Slower in space = (less friction (imaginary)) faster in time (speed compresses distance of blast zones as gravity does, slows time) (red shift of gravity same as red shift of movement away, same thing, increasing gravity away from galaxy, or expanding space, depends on view, but same thing from a third point of view)(also from way outside viewpoint, separation never occurred, all times -or- all spaces can be seen as one, depending on view) 

Gravity = force of traveling through time (or 4D space) similar to centrifical force inverted from inverse view of objects in space. (i.e. big things expanding faster (moving through time in a direction we can imagine only as expanding or contracting though it is neither and both) in positive regions, empty space expanding faster in negative regions. If you don't understand negative regions of curved space in relation to the region where you are, you are an idiot.) 

There are no such things as objects. There are only relationships. Between what is the question. Space within space, twisting around and through itself and through time like a really twisted up oak tree, but  what is the tree if all we can know are the branches, and the branches only connect to each other and only exist where they brush up against each other, who can say? 

No one can see anyone else. All you can see is your interpretations of them based not only on what you see but all else you have known before as similar and different, all your expectations and desires, all of this will affect what you (think you) see, and far more by what you think you are in relation to what you see. It can be said to see nothing is to see more truth than you can by looking at something. To look at something you need to start behind you and look through both (you and it) as well, beyond who, and what or what else is being seen or also seeing. 

Attempt the things you want most to achieve when you realize the need is in you to do so. Whether you succeed or not is not the point, nor is it up to you. The choice to attempt or not and willingness to follow through on the attempt are what is the point of existing, and is up to you. 

If you don't leave you can't return. By going there, you bring there and here closer together, you unite them, more a part of each other through you. The more you stay, the more others will stay and grow further apart. Apart is good, providing what connects them is good. When what they have in common is not good or grow too far apart, something better must be found to bring them together again. It is not found in one place or at one time, only by going to many places to unite them in time again for awhile. 

If multiple parallel simultaneously existing Universes were to be the case, you can never really help or adversely affect another, all you can see is one version of events of how your potential and theirs could intersect or overlap, and maybe in or through that, how it could create other Universes between. 

"Between" is always "by" (relational "by" not spacial). 

To tell if something exists or doesn't exist, you not only need to know what it is (or might be or might have been), but also what existence itself is. And while you are at it, what exactly you may be to want to know. 

All points in space exist right now (actually if the universe is expanding that would not be true, but if defined by atoms of a set number only decreasing over time it would be true in regards to potential places defined by things in them, though they could be spread out more and create more thinner things but whatever, digressing a bit). All points in time exist right here. To move through both at the same time is to pull some (points/times) to you and others further away from you, yet that is (only) perspective as much further away in both directions (the angle and direction) is reversed. 

Through box with no top or bottom, through tesseract with no top or bottom. 

Single moments in time do not exist. Objects as they appear at one moment in time are false, it is only across time through movement, perceptible or imperceptible moving in tandem, it does not matter, movement and streaming perception only. Spinning around oneself and orbiting around outside points, (are the) same thing. 

Only through ALL others eyes can we get any perspective on the value or worth of what we make of ourselves. 

Everything, every event, every consciousness in the Universe is so interconnected across time (that) if any one event is fated or must occur, every event forwards and backwards away in time eventually passing itself through everything (else) must occur in a given way

Your beliefs are a wall you build around yourself to give you a sense of identity or frame of reference. That wall was built by your experiences with other's walls. The more complete your wall is, you can no longer see other's walls except through your own. People like Socrates were smart enough to see their walls keep them from bouncing balls off of other's walls, or from even seeing them at all except from inside your walls (which) you really don't wish to tear down or you wouldn't have them. 

Though I did not understand it until later, by having both the near and far representations of Earth (in the sculpture) in (the representation of) a hyperspherical Universe shows space most strangely curved and more interactively when standing in-between (them)(representing being inside of a curved the physical Universe),  by having both Earths made out of glass (seeing through both from either outside both or inside both at the same time (though obviously outside of both and inside of both must be the exact same place)) gives an outside view upon the Universe's spacial region which we can perceive. 

I had previously used the term self-self-aware (actually it was "If not why self-aware" but the meaning to me was the same, meaning if not having the correct context to put your limited understanding of self-awareness within, if not knowing why you are self-aware or how that knowledge (awareness) and lack of knowledge fits into things and what will unfold. Gaining that context would be becoming self-self-aware or understanding how your seeming self-awareness and limited knowledge about things plugs into everything else, into events beyond yourself and creating or helping to cause those events. That is how condensed it gets when I write to myself. I boiled the whole Yoshoe/Yoshomee story down to remember it later with just "the dividing and recombining aspects of existence") in the notes with little comment about it. One can say (and many do ;-) mankind is self-aware when perceiving itself (individuals) as being separate from (their) environments and aware of freewill or choice, and has proclaimed itself, unfortunately, as sole (species?) in its environment in this regards. One becomes self-self-aware when one realizes that sense of identity or separateness is completely determined by factors outside oneself and events in and over time which solely constitutes that sense of identity. By moving perception of identity away from the physical self to the perception of EVENTS one is aware of oneself in the context with other things and not as separate at all but instead one view or perspective upon a whole of which you can never separate yourself from no matter what you may wish to think. 

3D etch-a-sketch reality. (Creating existence through absences against a uniform background which appear (the absences, holes in space and time) as the solids) 

Everything in existence is forced by experiences to grow into a certain mold. One door opens, go into a room, another door opens, go into the next room. All you will see and know mapped out ahead of time. Go through enough doors and you can get a sense of predictability to the overall pattern, but you will always be molded as long as you follow the pattern (any pattern). The only way to escape the pattern is to learn to see through the walls of where you are supposed to be and only from what there are you supposed to see and experience. You may not be able to go to the rooms outside your sequence, but by perceiving them, exist in them in another sense simultaneously as well. 

I ended up reapproaching my own life from an unfamiliar direction, off the map (note 2, swing, maps). Orientation (orientation within a system) is in flux because there is little point in deciding which way is up (figuratively speaking) when all directions are (up) equally and also simultaneously in a sense (seemingly to me somehow). Inner to outer in all directions at once (through everything) is the only measure of "up" left to orient myself by. 

Focusing on and understanding your life as primarily events somewhat independent of matter only involving matter, as perspective, beads on string, of different "yous", different ideas of yourself at different stages, the flame that continues through different pieces of wood of your body different each day, different wood, and thousands of different each living cells of your body being born and dying each hour to keep that illusion of a static stable mostly unchanging body going, strung together mentally over time via memories only in the moment of other times, nothing is as important as this from earlier in the notes and cannot be stressed too often or too much, "Experience is all that world has to give or teach you and all you have to give or teach it." 

My second point of reference further out than most, greater orbits, through all else in all directions outside of all points in space equally yet (still) forward in time, yet looping back in time as well simultaneously. 

The potential anyone has is defined in and by others, and NOT oneself. In the words of every child ever born, "I didn't ask to get born!" In a way you didn't, and the Universe through you is just getting back the expectations of what was put in to create you by others. 

Experience involves objects but not into any one of them more than any other, through time but not in any one moment more than any other (combined only). 

the events it moves through are neither only in the future nor in the past, but in both or outside of both, depending on what angle you view them from. 

Every month my mind grows more multi-dimensionally in my reasoning. How more and more people's lives fit together and overlap becomes more and more simple to understand. Even the patterns of rising and falling civilizations becomes logical and predictable. Perceiving through matter, peoples lives, processes, and time. 

Dimensions, triplanes, timelines, movements through. 

People interact with totems as (much as) with each other. These totems, false faces are their perceived status, position, and future potential. That time dimension they think matters and impresses more than what they currently are, and while everyone else thinks that bullshit too, it does. I am lucky to have an inexplicably complicated past and pretty much no future potential, so I have for so long have had to just be what I am and leave all that social maneuvering and considerations as inapplicable to my situation. It is a freedom more than a curse, and a better perspective. 

If an object moving in a direct line away from you (at the speed of light) at an exact moment in time's location equals all points on a (curved) plane (into a ball shape) away from you at all (equal) distances away from you like an antipole, (being) one location and every possible location an equal distance away, only objects moving through space at an equal speed in every possible direction as you can move in, (only then) can (it) have exact single locations in both time and space relative to your point of view and movement. Because gravity simulates movement, this also complicates things as each objects existence in and movement through gravity fields would have to be equal, otherwise each unit of time would equal more than one possible location for that object from your point of view (not only for speed of light but more extreme at that speed) (distance plotted relative to your location with a curvature margin of error of multiple places existing in or distortion of shapes), or each possible location would seem to exist in a multiple of timeframes at once depending on movements away from you and gravitational differences. Curved environments makes times and locations reverse fish-eyed lens-like either the further they are away from you, or relative to movements away from you in any possible direction away from you, as well as gravitational differences. 

No one should ever seek or find an explanation for what they are completely within others' words, explanations, or models for what a person or life is or is about. Each life is unique and all else exists to figure out that uniqueness and how best it can contribute to whatever else through expression of that uniqueness, never through mindless conformity. That is a denial of life. If who you are is to hide or run away from who you are, most societies could not love you more, but some will occasionally give you time to figure out who that is. Taking advantage of that opportunity is up to you. That uniqueness is not found in your life, that uniqueness **IS** your life and all events within it equally. 

Add one more dimension than what beings perceive and it can be difficult for them to imagine as it would mean stacked worlds of all their perceivable dimensions at once and be difficult to see how one could move through it/them. Add two extra physical dimensions and there would be almost nothing their experiences could relate to movement or location at all conceptually speaking. Fully understanding one more makes it technically possible, but you would have to be willing to leave or put aside temporarily almost all of your preconceptions of where, when, and what you are or might be. 

The future and the past flow into each other from different directions passing through each other in the present. Your sense of identity is comprised of both, who or how you think you were, and who or how you think you might become. 

Identifying yourself by, in, and through everyone's' desires to achieve, be, or experience anything equally. To be is to want to do. And to sympathize all the more when even their simplest most modest dreams are limited, frustrated, or obliterated. That is worse than even their deaths. Killing their hopes and dreams can be to kill life itself more than just individuals, and justice is finding ways to make the most overlapping non-mutually exclusive ones to one day be realized for one and for all. 

While in existence, you are a part of others externalized in essence but internalized still through experience. Out of existence, you are in others more in essence though less through interaction with. 

Biology and biological drives define how and why you interpret events and experiences, as well as what purposes you hope to achieve through them or through the processing of them. The propagation of something, yourself, others, ideas, values, or organizations, motivates and therefore provides the context in how events are interpreted. Whether you believe what survives and grows (increases) should, and what shouldn't, decreases or lessens in importance, appeal, or strength. If gone, (people or a society) merely searches out some new "other" to destroy or turn against (which was previously) now a part of "us" or what we previously thought good enough to promote or advance. Find a new alien to define ourselves in opposition to, for the purpose of remaking them into something else. 

Things more valuable than power, wealth, and weapons people (still yet) cannot really understand. To them as this universe seems to be defined, they can easily think and say there is nothing more valuable than power, wealth, and weapons, or what leads to having them. Biological droids through and through. That things are bigger many worship without understanding and others use that worship to gain wealth and power over them, with the highest in the hierarchy, the richest and/or most powerful, separated from it the most. 

Just as everything outside yourself is an externalization of yourself in regards to the potential for experience (of it) and interaction with it in the time definition of yourself or what it means to be you, so too are you internalized within everyone you might meet in regards to their times events to define themselves through experiences with you. 

Outwards from you is out from within to them, outwards from them is from within to without from inside of you. Experience makes one think the opposite. You must learn to constantly switch perspective so that both inner to outer are synonymous from a viewpoint beyond both. Combining all reference points (away from) at once is to see beyond being just you (from only a single perspective in space and time). 

I can now see through just about anyone. I know all the potential good and bad in them far better than they do. By my past, I am conditioned to try to do good. Now there is a new caveat in the mix. Now I need to be given a good reason to. "Just because" is no longer good enough. I need to be reminded people are worth it from time to time. 

Seeing everything from outside of it. How worlds, matter, and species form. How consciousness and spirit form. What they hope to achieve in events in their limited times. What future orders they hope will arise and try to contribute to. How their senses of identity form and are shaped. Experiences first, foremost, and exclusively. Shaped, molded, grown. Lives as objects, objects as experience and potential for experiences only.  Seeing your own life from outside of it and within the same context as others without attachment enables seeing others lives from within to without as well. Each outside view is anothers, all others, potential inside view.